Man! Since I’ve started this blog, I’ve been in a really weird funk.  I’m sure 80% of it is post-baby hormones since having my little squishy bundle of joy Emery (blog post coming soon), but 20% of it is part of the journey of going out on a limb and building a business.

Have you ever heard the adage, “success leaves clues?”

Looking back, name those moments when you feel most alive.  Most energized.  Most excited about life.

For me, it’s having one on one conversations with other business owners and friends.  I absolutely love brainstorming and coming up with ways to grow a business.  It’s also when I’m creating – designing bows, dancing, coming up with toddler fashion outfits…  (seriously, it’s scary how fun I find that to be).

Those are our “clues” … pointing to our own personal “zone of genius.”  We all have it.  It’s that thing I mentioned that you could do without getting paid for the rest of your life.  That thing you could do in the middle of the night.

But since I’ve gotten more and more in my zone, I’ve felt this resistance.  Out of nowhere, I’ll be gripped with fear that I don’t have what it takes.  That I’m just “playing work” right now and none of this growth is real.  That it’s going to crash and burn around me.

I’m having really scary thoughts that I’m not worth success in business.  That it happens to other people, but won’t happen to me.

And then I have these terrifying thoughts about success.  What if I achieve it?  And then can’t sustain it.  I’m all over the board.

The only answer I have right now is to keep on moving.  In doubt, fear or anxiety, keep moving forward and working hard.

It also helps to remember WHY I’m building a business.  I want to create a life I love with my family.  And I want to travel the world!  I also have this feeling that even though I’m actively working towards what “I” want to create out of my life, I know deep down that I’m moving towards this bigger plan that God has for my life… that I’ve finally stopped ignoring the unique way I was designed and I’m on the road to fulfilling something that’s going to make a difference in the world.  Something beyond toddler bows and pretty pictures, that will have impact.

I’ve always felt there is something for me to do or start overseas, and I feel like my desire to travel the world is the gateway for this to manifest in my life.  I guess we’ll see where all of this ends.

Thank you guys for being on this journey with me.  I hope you can keep your WHY at the forefront of your mind every day, during doubt, insecurity and fear, and that you can find your “zone of genius” and never let it go again.

i’ll leave you with this… because to me, it’s why it’s all worth while.

Be Brave, Hillary